My Messed Up Life.

[thunderstar]

shadow do you feel beter now that people know about that

[Connor]

I'm unloved...


But eh, you suck up the pain and take it out on a voodoo doll.


*Pokes a Hito voodoo doll in the but and real Hito jumps*


Muhahahaha. >:D

[Shadowstar1922]

I'm unloved...


But eh, you suck up the pain and take it out on a voodoo doll.


*Pokes a Hito voodoo doll in the but and real Hito jumps*


Muhahahaha. >:D

conny, you really didn't get what i was trying to say. so much as happend, poking a voodo doll won't change anything. and what you said, wans't rlly funny. this is serious. your another who doens't understand. and thunder, it kinda does fel better. i think some people will think diferently, now they know this...

[Angel valierre]

hey, anyone knows why i get so moody sometimes? well, read this.
When i was four, my mother left me from drugs, and i never saw her since. months later, my granfather, who i was close too, died of cancer. 2 years alter ,my aunt, who i also grew close to when my grandfather, died from a heart attack. hen i was 7 ,my best friend died form a hunter in the forest. he died right in my hands, and i miss him so much. the hunter ran away, when he accidentally shot him. my unce left for the army when i was 8, and he neer came back. motnhs later, we learned he got killed. when i awas 10 my hose exploded, i wasn't in it. i lost so many things, like voice recordings and pictures of my mother. i dont' even know what she feelsl ike, looks like, smells like, and sounds likes. a week later, my teacher, WHO WAS THE BEST. died form breast cancer. i also miss her. she was only 39. when i was 12, i got shot in the lungs when i was in this store. i almsot died, but i got to the hospital in time. my lunga are checked reguallly. the docotors are supirsed i can sing. my gf got shot in the heart. i thougth she died. i was a mess. i lvoed her so much. i didn't go to school for a week, because soo amny thigns reminded me of her, and i would just break into tears. recent events, last week m friend's house burned to the ground with him in it, and his cousin. they foudn it skekelten, covering his baby cousin. i miss him so much. last month, my grandmother got killed, when these robbers came in. my grandfahter took out a machine gun form WWII, that he got from his father. thank god it worked. those robbers would've killed him too.
i cry almost every day, when i think about the ppl i have lost. it's like God despises me, and he'e taking so many people away from me.

awww im so sorry to hear that i know just typing words doesn't help but i really feel bad for you shadow, maybe you should just tell all of those problems to God and let him take care of you.

[tiny]

just remember this...
Turnaround, every now and then I get a
little bit lonely and you're never coming around
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround bright eyes

[Angel valierre]

just remember this...
Turnaround, every now and then I get a
little bit lonely and you're never coming around
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by
Turnaround, Every now and then I get a
little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and
then I fall apart

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

Turnaround bright eyes
Turnaround bright eyes

I love that song!

[Shadowstar1922]

hey, anyone knows why i get so moody sometimes? well, read this.
When i was four, my mother left me from drugs, and i never saw her since. months later, my granfather, who i was close too, died of cancer. 2 years alter ,my aunt, who i also grew close to when my grandfather, died from a heart attack. hen i was 7 ,my best friend died form a hunter in the forest. he died right in my hands, and i miss him so much. the hunter ran away, when he accidentally shot him. my unce left for the army when i was 8, and he neer came back. motnhs later, we learned he got killed. when i awas 10 my hose exploded, i wasn't in it. i lost so many things, like voice recordings and pictures of my mother. i dont' even know what she feelsl ike, looks like, smells like, and sounds likes. a week later, my teacher, WHO WAS THE BEST. died form breast cancer. i also miss her. she was only 39. when i was 12, i got shot in the lungs when i was in this store. i almsot died, but i got to the hospital in time. my lunga are checked reguallly. the docotors are supirsed i can sing. my gf got shot in the heart. i thougth she died. i was a mess. i lvoed her so much. i didn't go to school for a week, because soo amny thigns reminded me of her, and i would just break into tears. recent events, last week m friend's house burned to the ground with him in it, and his cousin. they foudn it skekelten, covering his baby cousin. i miss him so much. last month, my grandmother got killed, when these robbers came in. my grandfahter took out a machine gun form WWII, that he got from his father. thank god it worked. those robbers would've killed him too.
i cry almost every day, when i think about the ppl i have lost. it's like God despises me, and he'e taking so many people away from me.

awww im so sorry to hear that i know just typing words doesn't help but i really feel bad for you shadow, maybe you should just tell all of those problems to God and let him take care of you.

I feel God has betrayed me, that he let all these thigns happen to me. i don't believe in God anymore.... and i never will... i think the word for people who don;t have a religion, is Athiest. but, i am learning the old Irish Religion. when the Celtics first people to settle in Ireland, and they set up their own religion, and centeries later, they followed Roman Catholic. it was influenced on them when the Romans TRIED to conquer Ireland. Key word, tried. The Romans lost greatly.

[Shadow00]

Sorry to be the bad guy,but does this thing sound fake or what?
No,really.

[Foopzheart]

Awwww, Shadowww! I never knew this!

But think about this:

God doesn't despise anybody but the sinners. (Like the robbers near the end of your post.) He doesn't despise you; we all know that you're super-nice--God likes super-nice people.

Anyways, though, all the things that happen to you will be important to your way of life later on. God has a place for you. After all the things that happened to you; God has a place for you. A very important place, most likely. One fit for somebody as strong-willed as you.

It's not exactly the best inspirational speech; I didn't like it much at all. But it's your opinion that matters.

Best of luck,

Fuipui.

[Shadowstar1922]

Sorry to be the bad guy,but does this thing sound fake or what?
No,really.

YOU THINK I'M LYING??? why you...! shadow, you are.... AUGH. I WISH I COULD SAY IT. but it's waay to graphic for young viewers, and i will get banned. i can't belive you think i'm lying....thats so offensive. i only lie to people i hate


fui, thanks. i didn't want to tell everyone anything, coz i thought that everytime they would see my, they would be like, "aaawwww. you poor kid! come here, give me a hug!" and that would sound creepy. but then i felt, like i really needed to tell someone.