Angel's Thread
Re: Angel's Thread
UPDATE ON THE "BEST FRIEND/RETURN MISSIONARY"
So as many of you know, I waited 2 years for a missionary and thought that we would end up together when he got home, but clearly that didn't work out.
Long story short...
We're "just friends".
I have officially lost all relationship options with this guy after 5 years of "not" being together.
So theres the update.
My life consists solely of work, sleep, and occasional eating (that is if I don't forget to take my dinner to work with me...)
So there you have it. Angel has absolutely no one now, but we're still going to be "best friends forever" apparently!
How do I feel about this, you might be asking?
Well its really quite simple. I was really hurt for a while, thinking that he had walked out on me like literally every other friend I've ever had, but eventually, after being angry for a while, I decided that it didn't matter anymore. At this point, if he were to totally abandon me, I would be hurt, yes, and extremely mad at him, but I would just have to get over it and move on. I don't feel like I love him anymore, but at the same time I don't want him to leave either...
So here I am... The "best friend anyone could have" forever...
The End.
So as many of you know, I waited 2 years for a missionary and thought that we would end up together when he got home, but clearly that didn't work out.
Long story short...
We're "just friends".
I have officially lost all relationship options with this guy after 5 years of "not" being together.
So theres the update.
My life consists solely of work, sleep, and occasional eating (that is if I don't forget to take my dinner to work with me...)
So there you have it. Angel has absolutely no one now, but we're still going to be "best friends forever" apparently!
How do I feel about this, you might be asking?
Well its really quite simple. I was really hurt for a while, thinking that he had walked out on me like literally every other friend I've ever had, but eventually, after being angry for a while, I decided that it didn't matter anymore. At this point, if he were to totally abandon me, I would be hurt, yes, and extremely mad at him, but I would just have to get over it and move on. I don't feel like I love him anymore, but at the same time I don't want him to leave either...
So here I am... The "best friend anyone could have" forever...
The End.
"Halo, and goodbye!"
Re: Angel's Thread
dang. that really sucks. i'm sure it'll be okay. sure, it might be a bit hard to talk to him for a while, but that will pass. also if he thinks of you as a best friend, that's how you should see him too. it helped me get over my last crush, actually.
imo, you should plan for your future before you get into another serious relationship. where do you want to live?? how much is it going to cost?? any way for you to get a better job?? don't switch jobs now, of course. maybe get enough money for college??? idk if you're at college yet or not. i'm not trying to put a bunch of pressure on you, but this is me trying to give you suggestions of things to focus on other than boys. and you're never going to be perfectly able to get boys off your mind. hell, i can hardly go for five minutes without thinking about how cute girls are.
but the best thing you can do is try to distract yourself. that's what i have to do with my trich. while my hair is too short to pull out, i have to put something in the place of that habit. i've happened to have taken up tapping out rhythms on my desk with my fingers during class (but quietly, i don't want to get in trouble).
so yeah that's my thoughts!! i really hope everything turns out okay. i don't want no sad nanneh angie unless someone dies, okay??? (also don't think about people dying, it'll make you even sadder than when someone really dies.)
~boxy
imo, you should plan for your future before you get into another serious relationship. where do you want to live?? how much is it going to cost?? any way for you to get a better job?? don't switch jobs now, of course. maybe get enough money for college??? idk if you're at college yet or not. i'm not trying to put a bunch of pressure on you, but this is me trying to give you suggestions of things to focus on other than boys. and you're never going to be perfectly able to get boys off your mind. hell, i can hardly go for five minutes without thinking about how cute girls are.
but the best thing you can do is try to distract yourself. that's what i have to do with my trich. while my hair is too short to pull out, i have to put something in the place of that habit. i've happened to have taken up tapping out rhythms on my desk with my fingers during class (but quietly, i don't want to get in trouble).
so yeah that's my thoughts!! i really hope everything turns out okay. i don't want no sad nanneh angie unless someone dies, okay??? (also don't think about people dying, it'll make you even sadder than when someone really dies.)
~boxy
that was dramatic. still ready 2 die tho!
Re: Angel's Thread
Thanks Boxy.
I'll be alright though.
I've got other things to think about anyway, like if I'm going to serve a mission or if I'm going to stay in school. I had everything planned out and then all my plans just *poofed*. Life is ever changing...I can't really rely on any plans I make for my future at this point.
But I'll be alright...
I'll be alright though.
I've got other things to think about anyway, like if I'm going to serve a mission or if I'm going to stay in school. I had everything planned out and then all my plans just *poofed*. Life is ever changing...I can't really rely on any plans I make for my future at this point.
But I'll be alright...
"Halo, and goodbye!"
Re: Angel's Thread
I just realized that none of you, or almost none of you, know the story behind me and Alan. My "life" story thus far...
So sit tight, this is going to be quite a story...
When I was 15 I was dating a guy who I thought really loved me. I was crazy about this guy, but my friends didn't like him because he was kind of a bull dog. What I mean by that is I had no friends but him because he never let anyone come close to me. If another guy so much as smiled at me, my boyfriend was threatening to beat them to a bloody pulp. He was the only person I had and he made sure I knew it, and soon enough I felt like I couldn't do anything without him, like I was nothing without him, so I stayed with him.
Later that year I found out that my brother had decided to get married (he was 18) and he flew to California to propose to his girlfriend (her family had moved back there after her mom cheated on her dad). I didn't find out from my family, his girlfriend and soon to be fiance had sent me a message on social media saying, "Hey! You're brother is coming to propose to me! How do you feel about becoming sisters!?" So now suddenly I was losing my brother! So we had less than a month to plan a wedding!
Then not too long after that we found out my mom had stage 2 breast cancer and was going to have to have chemo and radiation. Since my mom had had thyroid cancer when I was 7 I wasn't as scared as I probably should have been. I thought my mom was an amazing strong woman and that she would be fine.
When school got out for the summer my boyfriend ended up dumping me, because there was a new school opening the next year closer to where he lived and he was going to be on the football team and "didn't have time for me" anymore.
Now remember how he had made me feel about myself? That I was nothing without him. I was very dependent on him, I thought I needed him, without him I was a nobody. I had to take my mom to her chemo treatments which were 3 hours long and there were about 11 of them I believe...Now I'm the youngest in my family, I've always been taken care of, I never had to be the one to take care of everyone else. So here I am, 15 years old, and suddenly I've lost everything I cared about, my mom had a chance of dying from a terrible disease and suddenly I'm the one in charge of taking care of my family (since my dad was always working to be able to pay for things).
So there's how my life was when I was a sophomore in highschool.
Due to all of these things going on in my life, I began having suicidal thoughts, yes, you read that right... I was one of those people... I thought I wasn't good enough and that I was a burden on my family and that my life wasn't worth anything. Pretty soon I began thinking God was punishing me and I began to push out my religion and blame God...
Then along came Alan.
He is the reason I'm here today, he got me through the hardest times in my life (so far) and we've been best friends for 5 years, though he's been by my side for the past 6 years. He helped me realize that I wasn't worthless, that God wasn't punishing me, that things just happen and we all have trials that we must bear, but that we can get through them. He didn't realize that I had suicidal thoughts, but he could see that I wasn't happy and he took the time to get to know me and helped me get back on my feet and get my life under control.
He's always been there for me, and I thought we were for sure going to end up together, but as you can see from the previous update, things didn't work out, but I know he was meant to be a part of my life and for that I am grateful.
So there you have it.
I don't really remember much from high school because things were so hard on me that my brain has literally just blocked those things out.
Alan will always be my best friend and I will always love him...though I'll never be with him, but thats ok... because if we were meant to be, then things would have worked out.
So sit tight, this is going to be quite a story...
When I was 15 I was dating a guy who I thought really loved me. I was crazy about this guy, but my friends didn't like him because he was kind of a bull dog. What I mean by that is I had no friends but him because he never let anyone come close to me. If another guy so much as smiled at me, my boyfriend was threatening to beat them to a bloody pulp. He was the only person I had and he made sure I knew it, and soon enough I felt like I couldn't do anything without him, like I was nothing without him, so I stayed with him.
Later that year I found out that my brother had decided to get married (he was 18) and he flew to California to propose to his girlfriend (her family had moved back there after her mom cheated on her dad). I didn't find out from my family, his girlfriend and soon to be fiance had sent me a message on social media saying, "Hey! You're brother is coming to propose to me! How do you feel about becoming sisters!?" So now suddenly I was losing my brother! So we had less than a month to plan a wedding!
Then not too long after that we found out my mom had stage 2 breast cancer and was going to have to have chemo and radiation. Since my mom had had thyroid cancer when I was 7 I wasn't as scared as I probably should have been. I thought my mom was an amazing strong woman and that she would be fine.
When school got out for the summer my boyfriend ended up dumping me, because there was a new school opening the next year closer to where he lived and he was going to be on the football team and "didn't have time for me" anymore.
Now remember how he had made me feel about myself? That I was nothing without him. I was very dependent on him, I thought I needed him, without him I was a nobody. I had to take my mom to her chemo treatments which were 3 hours long and there were about 11 of them I believe...Now I'm the youngest in my family, I've always been taken care of, I never had to be the one to take care of everyone else. So here I am, 15 years old, and suddenly I've lost everything I cared about, my mom had a chance of dying from a terrible disease and suddenly I'm the one in charge of taking care of my family (since my dad was always working to be able to pay for things).
So there's how my life was when I was a sophomore in highschool.
Due to all of these things going on in my life, I began having suicidal thoughts, yes, you read that right... I was one of those people... I thought I wasn't good enough and that I was a burden on my family and that my life wasn't worth anything. Pretty soon I began thinking God was punishing me and I began to push out my religion and blame God...
Then along came Alan.
He is the reason I'm here today, he got me through the hardest times in my life (so far) and we've been best friends for 5 years, though he's been by my side for the past 6 years. He helped me realize that I wasn't worthless, that God wasn't punishing me, that things just happen and we all have trials that we must bear, but that we can get through them. He didn't realize that I had suicidal thoughts, but he could see that I wasn't happy and he took the time to get to know me and helped me get back on my feet and get my life under control.
He's always been there for me, and I thought we were for sure going to end up together, but as you can see from the previous update, things didn't work out, but I know he was meant to be a part of my life and for that I am grateful.
So there you have it.
I don't really remember much from high school because things were so hard on me that my brain has literally just blocked those things out.
Alan will always be my best friend and I will always love him...though I'll never be with him, but thats ok... because if we were meant to be, then things would have worked out.
"Halo, and goodbye!"
Re: Angel's Thread
Sorry, I should have said that my mom is fine now. Its been 5 years thats she's been cancer free!!!
No worries, she doing just fine now. Sorry to have worried you...
No worries, she doing just fine now. Sorry to have worried you...
"Halo, and goodbye!"
Re: Angel's Thread
Ok, I'm just going to put this here because I seriously don't want to talk about it anymore and I'm tired of saying it over and over...
Today I informed Alan that we are through. I can't love someone who wont love me the same way. I can't just be friends with someone I've loved entirely for so long so I had to just let him go.
So there it is...the guy I loved for 5 years is no longer in my life...
*shrug*
The End.
No more questions please...
Today I informed Alan that we are through. I can't love someone who wont love me the same way. I can't just be friends with someone I've loved entirely for so long so I had to just let him go.
So there it is...the guy I loved for 5 years is no longer in my life...
*shrug*
The End.
No more questions please...
"Halo, and goodbye!"
Re: Angel's Thread
*hugs*
ending something is always painful.
ending something is always painful.
The BUGBLATTER BEAST HAS SPOKEN, ALL HAIL THE BLATTERER!
Re: Angel's Thread
FWG Leader wrote:*hugs*
ending something is always painful.
*hugs*
Extremely...
Luckily when he realized what "goodbye" really meant he panicked and practically begged me to give him another chance. He admitted that he had messed up really bad and promised to do better.
He came to my work last night and I had gone into the back to get a bandaid and my two coworkers came back and was like "someone is here to see you...its 'him'" and I was like "why would he come to my work?! what is he doing!?" I almost didn't want to go out and talk to him, but I felt bad so I did.
He was shaking like a leaf and looked like he was about to burst into tears! He even bought me a present (which he claims he had wanted to get me the day before). It was a mjolnir keychain from Hot Topic.
After a long conversation when I got home from work (because my boss came out and pretty much told me to get back to work, in a nice way) we worked things out and he promised to do better and to communicate with me instead of keeping me in the dark.
He even said "what if I do end up getting a gf that isnt you, only to realize that you were the one for me because she ended up breaking my heart, but you had left and I couldn't get you back?" so I told him that I'll try to be less jealous about the girls he dates, but no promises...
Its not going to get any easier...But I do hope I don't get hurt like that again...that sucked...But at least now I know he really meant it when he said he cared about me, otherwise he wouldn't have tried so hard to get me back.
"Halo, and goodbye!"
Re: Angel's Thread
Is it just me, or does anyone else sing better when they are slightly sick?
*shrug*
I think maybe its just me... Or maybe my ears are stuffed up and I just don't hear how bad I really am? I have no idea...
*shrug*
I think maybe its just me... Or maybe my ears are stuffed up and I just don't hear how bad I really am? I have no idea...
"Halo, and goodbye!"
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