mental health is a serious issue (mature content)
Posted: 31 Jan 2019, 01:34
im here because i needed a void to yell my thoughts into.
idk what's up with me noggin most of the time.
nothing i used to like is fun. i don't do art, i don't play ukulele, i hardly even listen to music (unless it's music my nephew likes); i don't make videos, i don't do any crafting, i don't watch tv show or movies.
not liking anything makes it very hard to talk to people! i don't really have friends right now. i feel like i'm driving any friends i have left away because i only can ever talk about my problems. they're all i ever think about. how i'm stuck at home with no job. health's bad as usual. i'm having the worst time trying to be a good aunt because i am tired and i don't want to be an aunt anymore but i know she needs my help!!!!!!!!!!
i'm just exhausted in all senses and i don't know what to do. i like a very small, niche selection of things and that's about it. i'm only ever "happy" when i'm high. i know its not healthy but fuck it's all i have right now.
i don't know what to eat either. my appetite has mostly been gone anyway but food just. scares me. i hate eating. i can't really shop for myself because i can't drive and i don't have money. so when i do eat it's food that makes me feel shitty!!!! excellent. i loveeee not being normal
i hate how that's one of my biggest concerns. not being normal. the whole construct of normality itself is a load of bullshit but god wouldn't it be nice!!!!!! to not have any fucking problems. fuck this
idk what's up with me noggin most of the time.
nothing i used to like is fun. i don't do art, i don't play ukulele, i hardly even listen to music (unless it's music my nephew likes); i don't make videos, i don't do any crafting, i don't watch tv show or movies.
not liking anything makes it very hard to talk to people! i don't really have friends right now. i feel like i'm driving any friends i have left away because i only can ever talk about my problems. they're all i ever think about. how i'm stuck at home with no job. health's bad as usual. i'm having the worst time trying to be a good aunt because i am tired and i don't want to be an aunt anymore but i know she needs my help!!!!!!!!!!
i'm just exhausted in all senses and i don't know what to do. i like a very small, niche selection of things and that's about it. i'm only ever "happy" when i'm high. i know its not healthy but fuck it's all i have right now.
i don't know what to eat either. my appetite has mostly been gone anyway but food just. scares me. i hate eating. i can't really shop for myself because i can't drive and i don't have money. so when i do eat it's food that makes me feel shitty!!!! excellent. i loveeee not being normal
i hate how that's one of my biggest concerns. not being normal. the whole construct of normality itself is a load of bullshit but god wouldn't it be nice!!!!!! to not have any fucking problems. fuck this