Angel's Thread

[Angel]

Well this all sounds very messy, doesn't it?

If it were me I would walk away from the whole situation thinking it was best for both of us. But that's just me.

If this is directed towards the whole "Alan" thing, then that is exactly what I've done. I told him to leave me alone like 2 months ago and I haven't regretted it at all. I feel soooo much better about myself and FREE!
We had some really great times together and there are a lot of memories . . . but that's all they are, memories. He'll never be the same guy I fell in love with and thought I was going to end up with and that's ok... we live and we learn, and boy am I glad I don't have to deal with a mother in law who hates me for the rest of my life! lol

[Angel]

Ok, hi.
Sooooo since I've already told a couple people what's going on I guess I might as well just fill in the rest of you.
A couple weeks ago I started having some bleeding problems so my mom made me go to the doctor.
I didn't think it was a big deal so I was pretty annoyed that she was making me go get checked...
Because my family has a history of cancer and my mom has had both Thyroid cancer and Breast cancer, I now have to go through some medical screenings tomorrow.
I'm sure it's nothing, but they (my parents and the doctors) have some concerns and want to make sure that everything is fine.
The worst part about this is I can't eat anything but clear liquids for the next looks at the time 24 hours or more!!! I can't eat anything!!! You don't understand how important taste is to me, and food.
Anyway...sorry...Kind of freaked out there for a moment.
I'm sure everything is fine and I will update everyone tomorrow after the screening is finished.

[Angel]

Alright, so good news and bad news.
Good news is: The doctors didn't find anything threatening.
Bad news is: They don't know why I was bleeding...and that's disconserting because that means no answers.
BUT!!! I was told I am very healthy and that is a great thing and if I have any more problems to come to the hospital immediately.

In other news... The second thing I said when I woke up was, "Can I eat now!?" so my parents took me to get a double cheese burger, a shake and a bag of chips. I love food so much you have no idea right now!

So, all the people who were suddenly nice to me can go back to hating on me because I'm not going to die.

[Angel]

My health is crap, seriously...

Last week I started feeling sick at work and ended up going home 2 hours early because I didn't feel good.
Before I even got to the doctor I knew that I had an ear infection and strep throat. How did I know this? Because I get them so frequently that I know when I'm starting to get them. For instance... If my ear pops a certain way I know I'm getting an ear infection, and if my throat burns in just the right spot and it hurts to swallow and I can see ANY sign of white spots on my tonsils, then I know I have strep. Well by the time I got to the doctor, my ear infection was full blown and hurt like hell and my throat was scratchy and hot.
I came home with antibiotics that will take care of my strep and ear infection, but on top of that I had the start of a cold, which as of yesterday, has taken precedence over the other two issues. The ear infection started in my left ear, and within a day had moved to my right ear. I have never had that happen before and man did it hurt to have a double ear infection! You can't lay comfortably because no matter what you do you will have one ear hurting really bad from the pressure of how you are laying. Strangely the antibiotic fixed my left ear within a couple of days and now it doesn't bother me at all, but my right ear is being a huge jerk. I had been taking Advil to relieve the pressure for a while, but when my right ear drum broke and the infection leaked out (which is how I've usually gotten rid of my ear infections because that's the only way I can handle it since they are so bad) I went 5 days without being able to hear out of my right ear, and although I can now hear out of it (with headphones on) it is still stopped up and annoying the hell out of me because of all the ringing and pressure it is causing. I haven't been able to NOT hear my heart beat in my head for a few days now... it keeps me awake at night till I am finally able to get relaxed enough that my heart rate goes down.

I take care of myself. I sleep, I take care of my hygiene, I eat, I drink juice/vitamin C, but I still get sick every 6 months! It's ridiculous really... I'm seriously a walking epidemic.

[Angel]

I'm really bad at keeping this thing alive...
There's just no reason to record any thoughts...
There are no thoughts to record worth recording...
Nothing seems worth while anymore...
All I do is work...Seriously, I get maybe one day off a week, and it's hardly ever on a weekend.
I'll be getting back into school in February, so maybe that will help me get out of this rut in life, though I highly doubt it because I literally have no friends in real life (not including the girls I work with, because we are all friends there).
Dating? Psh! I have no interest in dating, which my family frowns on because all I do is watch Youtube when I'm home and I don't go out and have no social life. It all just seems pointless, I mean I spent 6 years on a guy who ended up doing the same thing every other friend has done, he got tired of me and our friendship fell apart.
Why bother?
"Why bother", that's basically my life now...

[Angel]

Oh my gosh, you guys!
You're not going to believe this but...
Markiplier > Thor
There! I said it!
I mean he's just slightly above Thor, because you know...he's real and stuff, but he's done it!
NOW! If he were to dress up like Thor...I don't think I could handle it. I'm pretty sure I would legitimately implode.

Now, before you all freak out because, "Angel doesn't like Thor!!!"
I STILL LIKE THOR, A LOT! But Markiplier...That man is amazing.
Seriously! Not only are his videos hilarious and entertaining, but he is the sweetest, most caring person on all of Youtube. He doesn't do things to get gain for himself, he sells T-shirts to get money for charities, he does live streams to get money for charities... and most importantly, he loves all of his fans and he makes it a point to thank them for helping him get so far in his Youtube career.
If you don't know Markiplier, I would encourage you to get to know him, because he is a lovely man.

This all being said... Chris Hemsworth is still super hot lol

[Angel]

. . .Why?
Why do online guys talk to me like this?
I legit never get talked to like this irl. Guys are too intimidated by me. Seriously! I had a guy tell me once that I was too intimidating and I didn't even do anything. "You're just so pretty, it's intimidating."
Um...sorry for my face??? Idk what to say guys.

[Angel]

So um hi um...
Blind date last night...
His name is Allan...
and he's really cute, and he's taller than me, and a total gentleman, and he wants to see me again next week and buy me Thor/Avengers stuff and and and *squeals and runs off all excited*

Ok sorry, but seriously... I think I really like this guy.
That is all.

ps he kissed me...twice...heh

[Dr Frook]

So um hi um...
Blind date last night...
His name is Allan...
and he's really cute, and he's taller than me, and a total gentleman, and he wants to see me again next week and buy me Thor/Avengers stuff and and and *squeals and runs off all excited*

Ok sorry, but seriously... I think I really like this guy.
That is all.

ps he kissed me...twice...heh

O M G

[Angel]

We would be seeing each other again this Saturday if I didn't have to work...
But he's going to come over after work on Tuesday.
I never thought I would like a guy I met on a blind date.